If at First You Don’t Succeed…

Sticking with something is never easy to do no matter what people say sometimes. You finally find a light at the end of the tunnel and then life gets in the way. Well let’s just say life has been a big cock-block lately. I am not here to complain about my life because that would be a waste of your time, however, I am here to reassure you that it’s okay to fail. Whether it’s failing at taking care of your diabetes or failing to keep up with your blog- you can always start back up, you can try, try again.

I used to go months caring for myself and doing everything a type 1 diabetic should be doing, and then something sudden would happen in my life. A boy dumped me, I failed a test, or I drank too much trash can punch at that one frat party. Then the cycle begins again. It’s so easy to hop right off the regimen you tried so hard to maintain. You suddenly don’t have the urge to pick it back up again and you become careless. I used to think I was such a horrible person for doing that not only to myself, but my family. It’s like a bad habit you can’t kick or something. BUT we are diabetics, not alcoholics, and we can do better than that. Once I stopped feeling bad for myself for missing an insulin dose or having a high blood sugar, the easier it was for me to pick up my healthy habits again.

I always thought that I was the worst diabetic in the world. When I was younger, my mom would make me have phone calls with mentors who were about my age that were living with type 1 diabetes. I remember one girl saying that she never had a blood sugar above 150 and she checked her blood sugar 7 times a day. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?! That is not normal and anyone who says it is should be stuck with 1,000 insulin syringes. There is no such thing as a “perfect” diabetic. You already have diabetes so you aren’t perfect at all. What I am trying to say is that we have good days and bad days. It’s always a good day when you don’t have any highs or lows but if you are having a bad day, please don’t give up on yourself. You are worth so much more than that number on your glucose meter.

As for me, I have failed at maintaining my blog. Simple as that. I have officially turned into another blogger in her early 20’s who tried to attract more followers. I don’t want that. Lucky for me, I can keep trying because that is what life is all about, right? 🙂 I will never give up on writing and sharing my advice.

If you have any advice, tips or questions, please feel free to reach out! I am already working on my next post!

With love,

Alex

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2 thoughts on “If at First You Don’t Succeed…

  1. Melanie Boulanger says:

    Dear Alex – As you know, I am not a diabetic, and would never presume to know how that feels. Neither am I a religious person. I don’t pray, or even meditate really. But when I go out into nature and sit in it, be with it, it becomes easier to at first say, and then believe, “I am forgiven, and I forgive myself”. After all, dear one, you’ve done nothing wrong. You haven’t been unkind or hurt anyone. You disappointed yourself. You’re a writer, and a wonderful one at that. Writers write because they must. You will write when you feel that need, as you have now. Thank you. With love – Mel

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  2. Snehal Nandagawli says:

    Loved the post ❤ I am a type 1 since 15 years now. Depicts exactly what I am going through right now. Thank you for this, will read it every time I get low with life.

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